if I could look into your eyes
and read your mind
with these these big brown eyes
then I would read your mind
over one hundred thousand times
I would recover moments
that we could never get back
thoughts we shared
without you in my life,
its will power and love
that my heart lacks
have you ever felt as though
your soul is burning?
yes, I’m still constantly yearning
for your lingering touch
I miss our talks, our kisses
I miss… so, so much
and what I’m left with
is my imagination
let’s not forget
the emotions and memories too
I can imagine a better day
with me and you
and you’re still loving me
and everyone is so happy
including me.
I would have a ring on my left hand
and you would too
cuz if I knew what I know now
I would have never abused you

Everybody that really knows me, knows I’m secretly obsessed with zombies .

i really hate when im listening to my ipod and i move my arm or something and then my headphones rip out of my ears like what the fuck i trusted you

let-me-write-it-out-for-you:

Sometimes
my mind is like a stream
washing down the rocks
too quickly and
sucking anything that touches
it down the dangerous path.
But other times
my mind is like an iceberg,
stuck in place
paused and numb from the
shivering cold
that’s hitting my thoughts. 

I don’t know which
is worse,
a stream flowing too 
quickly for its own good
or water
not moving at all.

This is how I feel at times

what happened to the old you?
where did she go?
did she run off?
was she scared?
I’m sorry if I scared her.
Or, did I hurt her, mentally?
Probably.
I am so sorry.
Tell her she was beautiful.
And her smile lit up the world.
My world.
Just seeing her smile have me frozen in time.
In a secret world called bliss.
Where you can only visit for moments.
And I used to visit there often.

So, can you please ask her to return?
Because the new you is so cold.
She doesn’t smile.
She just curses, screams, and cries.
And she upsets me too,
So I scream back sometimes.
Then sigh.
I hate that feeling.
I wonder what happened
To make the old you die.

TWO HUNDRED TWENTY FOUR
When did you meet the last male you texted?
 school
Are you 100% over the last person you liked?
 nah
Ever receive a really long apology?
 nope
What were you doing at 7:45 this morning?
 um , it’s 6:30 am now so ill probably be eating or sleeping
Have you hugged someone this past week?
 yeah
Do you like your ketchup on your fries or on the side?
 on the side
Do you laugh a lot?
 not genuinely
Do you have a dog?
 no :(
Do you have a cat?
 my sister does
Do you like orange juice?
 yesss
Do you prefer big or small dogs?
 big
Last time you cried?
 two weeks ago
Do you like your first name? Yes
Describe the shirt you’re wearing in detail. It’s just a periwinkle colored t shirt I got from PAC sun it’s kinda faded but that’s the way I bought it
Have you ever glued your fingers together?
 not on purpose
What time do you usually go to bed on the weekends? 2 or 3 depends on what I’m doing
Are you always there for your friends?
 yes
Girl(s) you trust most?
 quayana
Boy(s) you trust most?
 levelle
Are you planning on seeing a movie anytime soon?
 yeah next weekend
Would you be happy if your life stayed the way it was right now forever?
 noooo
Do you think “I love you” is a strong phrase?
 nope
Do you love anyone right now?
 nope
How was your last Sunday? Great
Do you have a hickey right now?
 nah
Were you once obsessed over the Jonas Brothers? No.
Are you one of those Hollister people?
 nah
Who were the last 5 people to kiss you?
 I thought you weren’t supposed to kiss and tell ?
How many people have you kissed this month?
 1 
Have you liked a lot of people in your high school years?
 no.
Did your last boyfriend/girlfriend break your heart?
 no he was just a disappointment
Have you ever been used for something?
 yeah
Have you ever used somebody?
 no
Tell me about how you met your current crush.
 he’s adorable. He’s tall , he’s nice , he’s funny, his voice is so cute . He has his priorities together , he’s between the ages of 18-20 lol idk I gotta get to know him a lil more but he’s Puerto Rican & we speak Spanish to each other sometimes :) goshhhhh he’s a dream
In your life, what has been the reason for the majority of your tears?
 my mother. My high expectations. My ability to believe untrustworthy people. And my excuses.
Who is the best person to cuddle with?
 I don’t like cuddling
Have you ever felt awkward after kissing someone?
 no
Have you ever talked to a boyfriend/girlfriend about an ex?
 yeah
Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
 no
How do you truly feel about the last person you kissed? Shes funny. beautiful. smart. an amazing person . I love her .. As a friend . I thought about us as a couple and I don’t think it would work . I know shes in love with me and wants to be with me but i will never be able to commit to anything more than BestFriends with benefits … until she finds someone that deserves her.
You walk past the last person you fell hardest for, what do you do?
 keep walking
Spell out the alphabet and stop when you get to the initial of the last person you kissed.
 A B C D E F G H I J
Have you kissed someone more than 20 times in 2013? Yeah
Where were you Friday night at 10PM?
 my gmom house
Your most recent ex is on the side of the road on fire, what do you do about it?
 haha haha spit on him .
When someone says “we need to talk”, what goes through your mind? They need someone to listen to their feelings.
Are any of your friends so close to you you consider them family? Yes , one of them . D’andra
Where do you sing the most?
 everywhere
Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap?
 mmhm. Once.
Last time you did dishes?
 last night
Do you miss being in a relationship?
 no
If you were far from home and tired would you rather stay in a crappy hotel for $60 or your car for free?
 hotel
What color shirt do you never wear?
 I wear all colors
What was the reason you were last at a hospital?
 visiting a family member
Have you ever made your parents cry?
 yeah
Have you ever witnessed a physical fight at school?
 yeah
Ever liked someone else’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
 no
Who was the last person you kissed and why did you kiss them?
 my friend and because that’s a part of foreplay lol
What languages do you speak?
English and I can read and speak a lil Spanish
Do you worry too much?
Hell yeah
Ever had someone so obsessed with you it scared you?
 omg yes it’s not a nice feeling
Did you cry when you first watched The Titanic?
 no , I don’t see why it would make someone cry
Has a friend ever made you extremely mad?
 no
You’re locked in a room with the last person who hurt you, what happens?
 nothing worth typing
Would you ever consider getting a foot tattoo?
 no
Have you ever been to therapy?
 yea
Do you like toe socks?
 no
Do you know the difference between to, too, and two? To is a verb. Too means also or as well as . & two Is just simply a number .
Have you ever had chicken pox?
 nah
Do you have a trampoline?
No
Do you say necklace with two syllables or three?
 two
Do you say route like root or rowt?
 like root.
Do you dream in color or in black and white?
Color.
Have you ever Googled yourself?
Yup.
Put your phone/iPod on shuffle and tell me the first 10 songs and artists. iPod dead
What celebrity do people say you most look like?
Nono
What if the last boy you texted and the last girl you texted had a baby together?
 it would be ugly with cute features and nice hair
What if you had a baby with the last person who messaged you onFacebook?
 adorable
What’s a song that reminds you of your first bf/gf . I’m good
Do you know anyone that should not wear tight clothing?
 uh huh
Do you respect your parents as much as you should?
 I show respect but I don’t really respect them
Has an adult ever asked you if you wanted a cigarette?
 yeah
Do you believe everything the media says?
 fuck no
Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
No
Does your favorite band lip sync?
 no way
Can you type without looking at the keyboard?
 mmhmm
Do any bones pop when you stand up?
 no wtf
Do you enjoy decorating?
 no
Do you have friendly neighbors? 
I hate my neighbors but yeah you could say they’re friendly
How old is your house?
Like 30
If you could bring back ONE dead celebrity and replace them with a live celebrity who would you choose and why?
 I would bring back anyone just get rid of jay z
Does crying mean you’re weak?
 a lil
What’s your favorite My Chemical Romance song?
 don’t have one.
What did you do when you found out My Chemical Romance broke up? Continued living
What’s your opinion on having 6 or more members in a band?
 go for it
Sniff your shirt. What does it smell like?
 water
Have you ever cussed someone out?
 mmhm
Do you think it’s hot or gross when two guys kiss?
 no
Favorite cake flavor?
 chocolate
How many cars are in your driveway right now?
 2
Do you think your last ex still thinks about you?
 yeah
Do you tend to waste a lot of money?
 hell yeah
How does it feel to be heart broken?
Like you’re worthless and stupid
Explain why you last threw up. My stomach was hurting so I made myself throw up
What cell phone company do you have?
 none I lost my phone
What color is your hair brush?
 i have 3 black , brown & pink
Have you ever text voted for American Idol? No
Bar soap or body wash?
Body wash.
Who/what/when/where are you going to see in concert next?idk
Are you a heavy sleeper?
Nooe
Last missed call?
 work
Do you like Chinese food?
 yes
How big is your bed?
 queen
Do you think it’s bad for teenage girls to be on birth control? No
Do you own a lighter?
Nope.
You’ve locked yourself out and no one will be home for a few hours so you…
 climb in the window
Have you ever punched a wall, door, ect.?
 not since I was little
Do you prefer chocolate covered cherries or strawberries?
Niether.
What does the 9th text in your inbox say?
 phone lost
Ever been to California?
No
What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about the town you live in?
My favorite thing is that it gives me motivation and the least favorite things is the drug pollution, poverty , danger , and ad reputation.
Ever had a surgery?
Yea
Do you get over people easily?
 not easily but quick
Would you get in a car with a drunk driver if it was your only way home?
No
Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
No
What are five signs you’re in a really good relationship?
 you asking the wrong person
Think a lot before you go to sleep?
 not if I’m tired
Describe your life in one word.
 challenging
Sour or sweet candy?
Sweet.
What do you most use your phone for?
Twitter insta
Do you currently have any messages from an ex?
 yeah in my lost ass phone
If the last person you kissed told you they wanted to spend the rest of 
their life with you, would you believe them?
Yes.
Do you think you’ve found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with?
 no
Have you ever seen the last person you kissed without a shirt on?
Yea
If your parents searched your room, would they be mad at what they find?
 no
Do you think being drunk is a valid excuse for cheating?
 yeah
Do you believe in kissing if you’re not dating the person?
 yeah have fun

Have you ever:    1. Skipped class?  2. Done drugs?  3. Self harmed?  4. Drank?  5. Shoplifted?  6. Gotten a tattoo?  7. Broken up with someone?
What's your favorite:    8. Show?  9. Movie?  10. Song?  11. Tumblr?  12. Singer/Band?  13. Memory?  14. Book?
This or that:    15. Invisibility or Ability to fly?  16. Cookies or Cake?  17. Twitter or Facebook?  18. Movies or Books?  19. Coke or Sprite?  20. Blind or Deaf?  21. Tea or Coffee?
What's your:    22. Age?  23. Sign?  24. Height?  25. Sexual orientation?  26. Shoe size?  27. Religion?  28. Longest relationship?
Opinion on:    29. Gay rights?  30. Second chances?  31. Long distance relationships?  32. Abortion?  33. The death penalty?  34. Marijuana ?  35. Love?
Do you:    36. Believe in ghost?  37. Shower facing the shower head or turned away from it?  38. Sleep with the door opened or closed?  39. Love someone?  40. Still watch cartoons?  41. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?  42. Like yourself?